Identity Crisis

Recently I just found out Yunii, one of my friend who posted many DNC solo vid, is actually not DNC main. This surprised me a lot, considering I'm facing Identity Crisis in my FFXI life.

I asked her what's her opinion about "main" job. Is it your favorite job? Or is it the job you played the most? Or is it your best geared job. And her answer is favorite job=main job, although she plays DNC a lot, made a lot of solo vid, and has better gear on DNC, she still considered herself a BLM main because BLM is her favorite job.

I guess this actually cleared up confusion for a bit, your "best geared" job doesn't necessary having to be the same as "your favorite" job. I defined myself a "career COR" due to the fact that I spent 95% of my play time gearing it and doing research....and I still do.(Just +2ed relic legs and feet recently, working on Snake eye augment atm) But if you ask me which job is my "favorite" and get into the most in terms of role-playing aspect, I'm most likely going to answer BLU. In fact I still play BLU 95% of time, although 95% of time are spent to gear COR....atm the only BLU only gear I actively working on is just lv 85 Almace, but I'm working on Arma 95, Death Penalty, all COR Relic+2 augments on the same time.

Pretty ironic huh?

By Yunii's definition, I should be BLU main, I guess I should just go with that. Despite I know that I will never be elite on both jobs, due to one reason.


Once upon a time a player named Crazyvic in SE forum defined "Career elite player" as follows:

There "Career players" This players have 7 years using a job, trying pimp in gear and skills their job. They Read, math and parse real events for a great perfomance improvement.

There people very well informed, people spend several hours reading how gear a new job, building macros, doing several maths and parsing his new job.

In my personal exp any player informed can master "All jobs he want" No matter what. If this person have time for gear that in the right way, and do all the necesary yes a new job can be mastered.

Even if everyone can master anyjob and be a pimp expert player, always will be a diference vs a True Love and career person using a job.

The Career player will expend 95% their time pimping 1 job, will give these job 240 Spaces and will keep practicing and training for be the number one using his favorite job this is what make the diference vs a "Good informed player" vs a elite Career people.

A good informed player Cant give 240 espaces for only 1 job
A good informed player cant spend 95% of their time pimping a job
A good informed player dont have 7 years using a job 95% of time.


This persons are "ELITE Career players" The diference is notable when you see this persons play. Not is like see a Pimp Twastar thief or see a informed player, is another feeling more deep is lke see a ELITE CApitan player on the battlefields, this people on their jobs really will surprise everyone.

In conclusion everyone can "master" anyjob with efforts and knowedge but a few people will really be a Elite Outstanding player.

A elite player will outparse the 95% The playerbase with "Their favorite jobs No matter if this jobs are inferior jobs", this person will be always 79/80 and with a lot of gear varations in mog house, this kind of players are totaly elite masters in their jobs. Yes even a uKovansara warrior will fear this kind of players if you take they in "Light mode in the parses you will end raped for a big margin"

So i respect this kind of players because they use their jobs in a way exceptional even for see their true potential you need as minimiun be a master in the job they use just for UNDERSTAND whats going in there.

Not is only do maths in a imaginary paralel universe
Not is only parse like a idiot and ask the devil for help for a win a parse
Not is only read and set a Tp set and ws set there a LOT of more things necesary for be a Elite player.

If that's his definition of Elite(I agree with him too), I probably fit No.1 and partially fits No.2, but not No.3. I certainly spent 95% of time gear and do research for COR.....I don't think I use 240 inventory spaces for it(or else I won't be able to job change anymore q.q), but at this point of time I have nearly 20 sets of gear for this job, 1 set for each semi-useful WS, 4 sets for very useful WS(WF I mean). Some sets like MDT- and evasion shares with BLU, so I just use it on both jobs.(That's why I insist not to lv a heavy melee job.....can't share same items to save inv), and still aiming to tweaking it.

However no matter how I look at it, I don't play it 95% of time, probably not even 15% of time...........ok I admit I played it a lot more after VW became popular and I got it to 99 so I can get more chances to join VW /shout. But do I like to do VW on COR? I'm not really a big fan of VW WF spammage on this job(if spamming WS is what I like to play with I'd lv SAM ages ago)

I guess I'll probably never truly be good at my jobs. Since I believe your job only response to how much you love it and how much you play it. Spending 95% of time to grind gear won't make it elite, augment/merit everything for it won't make it elite too. You have to be truly into it, and love it, and play it a lot + create new value to the job to make it elite.

I tried to be the best COR I possibly can in every aspect, tried to grind best gears, tried to create new value for it, but then I realized I will never be the best no matter what...it has nothing to do with capping gears, it only has something to do with how much you play it and how much you get into it.

I enjoy watching Yunii/Draylo/Mischief's solo vid, it shows how much they love their jobs, despite not having the best gears. Ager didn't had best gear on BLU(in fact his offhand sword is doing wrong), but they're all associated with their "main" job and very good at it(ok, I know in Yunii's case is different, she said likes BLM better, but she is certainly one of the best DNC player I've met).

I'm hardly associated as COR main in FFXI. If someone knows that I'm doing Mythic, the first thing they asked is if I'm doing Tizona......no in fact they don't even bother to ask, they just automatically assume I'm doing Tizona.....Only Hotkarl guessed right so far, although that's because he thinks Tizona sucked and not worth doing.


1.5 years ago when I started this blog, I did an introduction post:
http://an-empty-vessel.blogspot.com/2010/06/empty-vessel.html

And funny thing is now that I looked back at it, nothing changed. Deep in my mind, I''m still an empty-vessel.

I guess that's just me, I can't be a true elite career of anything in FFXI. The job I played the most I don't bother spend time to grind any above average gear(still don't have Toci/Almace here ._....not even all spells) for it and won't bother to spend time to read/do research to improve it's performance. The job I tried to be the best and spend most of my time to grind gear/research for it, I can't really truly be into it.

I will continue to spend 95% of time to grind gear for COR, due to the reason that an Immortal has a dream of brighter future, and wants to pursue it, wants to change her fate, despite fact that I know my fate will never be changed...(If you read the Mythic suggestion I posted on SE forum, I'm completely suggesting SE to make Mythic COR into BLU LOL)

I guess I'm just myself, different from career elite ppl who only focus and dedicated to one job, different from bandwagon players who lv jobs for utility and only aim for gearing it decently. I don't lv bandwagon jobs for utility(and I hate bandwagon mentality with a passion), but I will probably never associated as "x job pro", and even if I finish Mythic one day, I doubt this will change.

I guess time to accept the fact that I'm not, and can't really be COR main, even after Mythic and Arma 95 done.

But I will do it regardless, everyone has a dream, no?

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Speaking of which, I noticed no one has any info about new lv 97 avenger's roll yet since no one care about any roll besides Regain+save TP........time to do some testings for it.......